Monday, March 31, 2008

2 for 2

Saints 125 defeated Carlton 85.

Superhero photo challenge - out the window

Trying again, originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

Just found another photo challenge at Shutter Sisters. The theme is shooting out of a window. So here's a shot of what's out the window as reflected in Phone.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Saturday Photo Hunt

This week's theme is "high".

Phone gets high...

Able to leap tall bookcases in a single bound.

High up in the tree tops...

Warburton trees

High up in the sky...

Don't forget to look up once in a while.

A legal way to get high...

Champers 2

Saturday, March 29, 2008

If six turned out to be nine, I don't mind

Found another photo challenge thingy over at the Snapery. Stuff Portrait Friday. It originates from here and the theme is "numbers". Sixty nine is a number:)

The difference a Phone makes...

Same shot (almost), same settings. One with Phone, one without. I just found it interesting how the focus changes completely once Phone is removed.

Ant's eye view

Follow the yellow (and purple) brick road.

1. Some relationships are meant to to be kept secret.
2. The Cure at Rod Laver Arena in August '07 is the last concert I saw; it was AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
3. Spring should be here in about 6 months.
4. Oh no! I forgot to take the washing off the line and it's raining!
5. I've recently started photographing reflections of anything and everything.
6. Good photography never fails to make me smile.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a couple of quiet ones in front of the TV, tomorrow my plans include work and then watching the Saints win and Sunday, I want to make it to work without a hangover!


Tuesday, March 25, 2008


While over at Ma'n'Pa's yesterday I raided my bookshelves and grabbed And The Ass Saw the Angel by Nick Cave. I read this when it first came out in the late '80s and thought I'd read it again in preparation for the Conversation with Nick that Clare and I are going to in early April. I remember it being a very bleak book with a heavy emphasis on biblical allegory. Definitely not your conventional novel!
Today a customer brought in Ken Follett's World Without End. It's the sequel to Pillars of the Earth which I read years ago and loved. This appears to be set 200 years down the track after the building of the cathedral. Naturally I've snaffled this to read before it goes on the shelf. :)

Birthday girl

Birthday girl, originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

15 today. Happy Birthday Schnook!


Monday, March 24, 2008

Antony and Cleopatra - Colleen McCullough

Finished this last night. Ever since I read The First Man in Rome I've been in awe of the research that McCullough puts into her books. She has chronicled the decline and fall of the Roman Republic from the time of Gaius Marius, through Sulla and Caesar and, finally, to Octavian/Augustus. Fascinating stuff.
Antony and Cleopatra is as much about the rise of Octavian as it is about Antony and Cleopatra.
There is nothing flattering in this portrait of two people trying desperately to hang on to power.
Antony is portrayed as a man plagued by doubt, lazy, a supreme procrastinator. He has a chronic inability to pay attention to important details and suffers from a fairly major drinking problem, which he manages to control at times but succumbs completely to when it all gets too hard. He is a man who can win battles but not the war.
Cleopatra is portrayed as a tiny, ugly woman completely consumed by her ambition to make her son by Julius Caesar, Caesarion, King of Kings. King of the World. That Caesarion doesn't want this and is more than happy to settle for being Pharaoh of Egypt is ignored by his mother with disastrous results.
The relationship between Antony and Cleopatra begins as one of mutual need. He needs her money to pay for his campaigns in the east. She needs his influence in Rome and is prepared to back him in order to topple Octavian and, thereby, clear the way for Caesarion.
They do, eventually, fall in love but by then it's all too late. Both end up committing suicide. The way McCullough details the declining psychological state of both Antony and Cleopatra, particularly as their respective ambitions are thwarted time and time again, is wonderfully done.
Octavian, meanwhile, slowly but surely turns Rome against Antony. He comes across as a master of propaganda, of spin. He uses Antony's relationship with Cleopatra, who he dubs the Queen of Beasts, to destroy Antony's reputation as a true Roman. He eventually meets Caesarion in Egypt and murders him on the spot. He recognises that Caesarion, the spitting image of his father, cannot be allowed to enter Rome as the people would accept him immediately as the true heir of his father (Octavian is Caesar's son by adoption only). Julius Caesar has, by this time, been raised to the status of a god. If the people of Rome were exposed to the god's son they would bestow on him the same status. Cleopatra's ambitions would be fulfilled. The emphasis, though, is that Octavian is working always for the greater good of Rome, not for his own personal power. That he attains supreme power in the end is a bonus rather than a fulfilment of desire. According to McCullough anyway.

The series spans seven, very large, books. The First Man in Rome tells the story of Gaius Marius, the outsider who revolutionised the structure of the Roman army. He does become the First Man but is never fully accepted by the Roman establishment. The Grass Crown details the rise of Cornelius Sulla to First Man status. A complete reprobate. Fortune's Favourites, Caesar's Women, Caesar and The October Horse chronicle the rise and ultimate fall of Gaius Julius Caesar from childhood to assassination. Truly one of the giants of history. Antony and Cleopatra brings the Roman Republic to an end with the rise of Octavian to the position of Rome's first emperor, Augustus.
It's a fascinating story.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Saints' first game of the season

Quarter time: Saints 27 Sydney 7
Keep it up boys!!

Half time edit: 30 points apiece. Ack!

Three quarter time : Saints 46 sydney 34.
Too close.

Full time: Saints 51 Sydney 49.
Way too close! I think I've lost my voice.

Saturday Photo Hunt

This week's theme is 'metal'. Heavy metal rock'n'roll!

Ibanez strat copy, originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

I feel a rant coming on....

Just saw a thing on the news about a march in Melbourne. It was reported as a gathering of all religions to celebrate whatever today's about. A gathering of Christian religions. I saw no mention of any other religions. Oh man, there are several things that bother me about this.
Australians very rarely march. We are, as a rule, apathetic about everything except the hip pocket and the football. There are, obviously, the groups who demonstrate about a particular cause, usually environmental, but they're small and infrequent. There's a yearly march on April 25th to remember the war dead and the occasional union march when the government is being particularly stupid.
But, on the whole, we're a couldn't care less nation.
The last time I can remember seeing a march of a religious nature was way back in early 1960s Liverpool when I was less than 12. My nanna was in the Orange Lodge and they marched every year to celebrate something that I've now forgotten, but it was all to do with the victory of the Proddies over the Catlics. What I haven't forgotten is the prejudice. It's ingrained in me to such an extent that no amount of education or rational thought can eradicate it. I hate the Catholic church and that's a fact.
The irony of that is that I consider myself to be an educated, rational, tolerant person. I abhor racism, sexism, all the isms (except that one). I cannot stand fundamentalism of any kind. Yet, I have this ingrained prejudice that I cannot shake. Fortunately, I'm educated and old enough now not to act on it. When I was younger it was a different story.
And it stems from my upbringing in a deeply divided city. Divided along religious lines - catlic and proddy.
And I learned that divisiveness from watching people march for an idea, a religious belief.
The footage I saw from today disturbed me because it was exactly what I used to see all those years ago. Just one brand of flag, one brand of speaker, one point of view.
There is nothing more divisive. Nothing.
Because the differences are all in the detail. God, Allah, Jehovah - all the same, there's no dispute on that. It's the detail that people march, argue, fight, kill about. Pointless really. Completely pointless.

Just to elabotate the religious divide and how it can spread I've lifted this from a blog from Baghdad:

The Great Wall of Segregation...

…Which is the wall the current Iraqi government is building (with the support and guidance of the Americans). It's a wall that is intended to separate and isolate what is now considered the largest 'Sunni' area in Baghdad- let no one say the Americans are not building anything. According to plans the Iraqi puppets and Americans cooked up, it will 'protect' A'adhamiya, a residential/mercantile area that the current Iraqi government and their death squads couldn't empty of Sunnis.

The wall, of course, will protect no one. I sometimes wonder if this is how the concentration camps began in Europe. The Nazi government probably said, "Oh look- we're just going to protect the Jews with this little wall here- it will be difficult for people to get into their special area to hurt them!" And yet, it will also be difficult to get out.

The Wall is the latest effort to further break Iraqi society apart. Promoting and supporting civil war isn't enough, apparently- Iraqis have generally proven to be more tenacious and tolerant than their mullahs, ayatollahs, and Vichy leaders. It's time for America to physically divide and conquer- like Berlin before the wall came down or Palestine today. This way, they can continue chasing Sunnis out of "Shia areas" and Shia out of "Sunni areas".

I always hear the Iraqi pro-war crowd interviewed on television from foreign capitals (they can only appear on television from the safety of foreign capitals because I defy anyone to be publicly pro-war in Iraq). They refuse to believe that their religiously inclined, sectarian political parties fueled this whole Sunni/Shia conflict. They refuse to acknowledge that this situation is a direct result of the war and occupation. They go on and on about Iraq's history and how Sunnis and Shia were always in conflict and I hate that. I hate that a handful of expats who haven't been to the country in decades pretend to know more about it than people actually living there.

I remember Baghdad before the war- one could live anywhere. We didn't know what our neighbors were- we didn't care. No one asked about religion or sect. No one bothered with what was considered a trivial topic: are you Sunni or Shia? You only asked something like that if you were uncouth and backward. Our lives revolve around it now. Our existence depends on hiding it or highlighting it- depending on the group of masked men who stop you or raid your home in the middle of the night.

So here I am...... ramblin' on

Babysitting a friend's house for the weekend. Ha, nearly didn't make it. I locked myself out of my room this morning! There are two normal doors on the inside and two double doors to the outside. I managed to lock them all! Of course, there are 45 million keys in the house and NONE of them fit the locks on my doors. Not a single one. Laurie, naturally, is away for the weekend. Old Ken had a go at breaking in but couldn't manage it. In the end I had to call the G-Man and he was able to pick one of the outside locks. So I got to Bronnie's hours late. But I'm here now - with my stuff which I'd carefully locked up behind me! Am I too young for Altzheimers? I'm beginning to think not.
Brought the geeetar with me and plan on making some noise later :) Haven't messed with it in soooo long. I'll end up with "blisters on my fingers". (Who said that at the end of which song??)
Brought the laptop too but it won't connect on Bronnie's system, different ISP I suppose. So I'm using her computer and am finding it really hard to type on a proper keyboard!
Thirteen Days is on TV later tonight. There's a fair chance I might watch it. Bronnie has one of those HUGE widescreen TVs :)
Work as usual tomorrow but Sunday is yet another family gathering. This time for Georgia who turns 15 on Monday. FIFTEEN! Gawd, she was only a child yesterday. Got 15tons of attitude too. Ah, the joys of teenagerhood.
Interesting post over at the Snapery about Barack Obama. Go read it if you haven't already. There's a link there to a speech he made about race in the USA. Very interesting. I'd vote for him on the basis of that speech I think. If I were eligible that is.
Anyway, the sun's well and truly over the yardarm so I'm off to open a bottle of something.
Happy Easter :)

Oh oh oh, I keep forgetting - on April 6th Clare and I are going to a Conversation with Nick Cave. He'll be there talking about his music and answering questions from the audience. Singing a song or two as well. There's also a photographic exhibition about the man at the Arts Centre so we're going to that first. Exciting!!

I think I might ask him about the silly facial hair!

Friday Fill-in

1. Travel is so exciting!
2. Strawberry fields forever.
3. Right now, anything edible sounds like it would taste delicious!
4. Why does Flickr make me feel so good?!
5. The Mona Lisa is something I've always wanted to see.
6. It's sad when the bottle is empty.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to babysitting a friend's house, tomorrow my plans include work then babysitting again and Sunday, I want to see the family at Georgia's birthday (15!!!!) dinner!
Here's the place to play

Friday, March 21, 2008

Thursday Thirteen

It's Thursday and I really should be doing a Thirteen. But there's not a single idea floating around the empty vessel that is my skull.
How about 13 random books sitting on the desk. You can tell me if you've read any of them and whether they're any good.

1. Trunk Music - Michael Connelly
2. Knights of the Black and White - Jack Whyte
3. The Husband - Dean Koontz.
4. Area 7 - Matthew Reilly
5. A Question of Blood - Ian Rankin
6. The Boer War - Winston Churchill
7. Moonlight Becomes You - Mary Higgins Clark
8. Nicholas Nickleby - Charles Dickens
9. The Station-Master's Daughter - Pamela Oldfield
10. Dark Hollow - John Connolly
11. Not Safe After Dark - Peter Robinson
12. Into a Dark Realm - Raymond E Feist (forget this one, sold already.)
13. Servant of the Bones - Anne Rice

Thursday, March 20, 2008

What is it Wednesday?

Is back at The Snapery. Go play, see if you can figure it out.

Watched Children of Men on DVD last night. Not bad. I don't normally like Clive Owen all that much but he's pretty good in this. Michael Caine does an excellent job as the old hippy guy. His scenes were the best parts of the film I think :)
Actually, the best bit was when the Clive Owen character looked out of a window over Battersea power station, complete with the Pink Floyd pig flying above it, a la the Animals album.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Paranormal :: The truth is out there

  2. Alarm :: bells

  3. Operative :: working

  4. Changing :: I wish this weather was

  5. Framed :: picture

  6. Beer :: ugh!

  7. Referral :: medical

  8. Unmasked :: KISS

  9. Movie star :: Kevin Costner

  10. Handbook :: never read them

from here

Sunday, March 16, 2008

7+ Super Hearts, Congrats

7+ Super Hearts, Congrats, originally uploaded by superhearts.

Second from the left, second row down is mine :)

Saturday Photo Hunt

This week's theme is "I spy". I spy four baby ducks....

Rocks 'n' ducks, originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

Vindicated, kind of...

Last night I went to a retirement function for George, one of the guys I used to teach with at Emerald. There were about 50-60 people there - all the good people, no administration or any of their toadies. It was great to catch up with them all. Haha, they all commented on how well I look! It's the lack of stress. A lot of people complain that teachers' hours are too short (ha, no-one ever counts the work done at home!), holidays too long, etc. But if you ever saw the haggard looks in a staff room at the end of any term you wouldn't even think to say any of that.
Anyway, after dinner were the speeches. George spoke at length about the school and the state of education in general. He kept referring to what had happened to me and how wrong that was. Then he apologised, on behalf of himself and the staff, to me for not having the guts to stand up and resist what was happening. He apologised for allowing the fucking arsehole to get away with harrassing me out of the job. Of course I burst into tears. There were a lot of sheepish looking faces around the room at that point. Afterwards I got lots of pats on the back and hugs. A couple of people admitted to feeling guilty about it all. It was just a really nice moment to know that the people who mattered knew that I hadn't really done anything wrong, certainly nothing that all of them haven't done too. I'd always had this suspicion that people believed I'd gone "bad" and that I deserved what happened. It's nice to know that's not the case.
Just a shame that they didn't stand up and be counted when it mattered.

But then I wouldn't be sitting here doing this - swings and roundabouts I guess.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Friday Fill-in

1. Contact may cause a nasty rash.
2. The parties hereto do mutually agree to disagree.
3. Disney parks are places I'll probably never visit.
4. A cigarette sounds really good right about now!
5. I positively am, right here, right now.
6. Flickr, particularly this group, always makes me smile :-)
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to meeting up with a bunch of people I used to work with, tomorrow my plans include work as usual and Sunday, I want to keep cool. Stinking hot weather all weekend!

The place to be.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Thursday Thirteen - Take 2

Thirteen pics I took up at Warburton on Tuesday:

River reflections 4

River reflections 2

View from the bridge 2

View from the bridge 1

This guy desperately needs a haircut.

Silhouetted trees

Don't forget to look up once in a while.

Finally saw some

The Yarra


Shadows and reflections

River reflections 3

Branches and clouds


Here are the rules:
* Link to the person who tagged you - that'd be Maribeth.
* Post the rules here - DONE!
* Share 7 random or weird facts about yourself - see below.
* Tag 7 random people at the end of the post, linking to them.
* Leave a comment on their blog so that they know they’ve been tagged.

1. I'm trying, trying, trying to quit smoking.
2. After 41 years of living in Australia I'm still a British citizen.
3. I lost my virginity at 15.
4. Pictionary is currently my favourite game.
5. I have a Bachelor of Arts in History and Politics from Melbourne University.
6. I used to teach History, now I sell books.
7. Music is what keeps me sane.

Tag yourself if you want to play along.

Happy Anniversary Ma'n'Pa

54 years married today. Here they are, with Clare, at Woolomai in Jan, '08.

D3, Ma'n'Pa

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Two days off.....

Monday - public holiday in Melbourne (Labout Day). It was an exceedingly hot day so I didn't do much. Laurie has finally (FINALLY!) reinstalled a washing machine in the house so I started the day in the queue to use it :) Read a fair bit - no love for Antony or Cleopatra in the McCullough book! She's definitely a Caesar fan.
Tuesday - Much cooler, thankfully. I went out to Warburton to pick up Georgia after school. Clare got home much earlier than she'd anticipated so, really, I didn't need to be there. Anyway, Clare and I left Georgia on myspace and took their two dogs for a walk along the aquaduct. Six kilometres! My old-aged hip gave out towards the end. About 4 kms would've been okay but the last two killed me. Haha, old Tash trotted the whole way quite happily. Made me feel bad 'cos I struggled. Took millions of photos, of course, which will no doubt show up on Flickr over the next few days.
Back at work today :(

Monday, March 10, 2008


Big win for the Saints last night. Beat Adelaide by 5 points to win the NAB Cup. Yeah! Beating Adelaide in Adelaide is no mean feat so I'm quite hopeful of a good season this year. Proper competition starts in two weeks. Bring it on!

Phone says "Bring it on!", originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

Meanwhile, I'm just a touch hungover today. Still struggling with the no smoking. One day at a time is my new philosophy. No long term plans, just one day at a time. I can do one day. Then I can do another one day, then another one day, ad infinitum. Simple really.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Saturday Photo Hunt

This week's theme is "different". Here are 4 shots of the same scene taken on different camera shutter speeds.
Yarra River, Warburton.

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Saturday, March 08, 2008

Friday Fill-in

1. Ahhhh, it's so nice to get some rain. Raining as I type, but won't be enough to make a difference. It never is these days.
2. One of my favorite things on my desk or bureau is hahahahaha, that'd be the books. Hundreds of them at the moment.
3. Japanese Cherry Blossom makes a nice ornamental tree.
4. Anywhere it's quiet is my favorite place to sit and read.
5. Vodka and Tia Maria together in a Black Russian is delicious!
6. I love to watch Kevin Costner, Johnny Depp, Cate Blanchett in movies.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to nothing much at all, tomorrow my plans include watching the Saints play in and win the NAB Cup final and Sunday, I want to make it through a smoke free weekend!

Friday, March 07, 2008

Just typing for the hell of it.....

My turn to cook last night so there was definitely no boiled beef and cabbage! Chicken parmigiana instead.
I even made the tomato sauce from scratch - very finely chopped onions and garlic (think I used 3 cloves), whole bunch of very ripe chopped tomatoes, rosemary, sage, basil, parsley (all fresh, chopped), black pepper, red wine, teaspoon of sugar. Cooked the onion and garlic first then just threw everything else in and cooked it on low heat till the tomatoes had fallen apart and the liquids had cooked down. Can't have it too sloppy.
Pan fried the chicken breasts till just about done then put them in a shallow oven dish. Covered each one with cheese (type doesn't matter but it needs to be a good melting cheese) and then with the tomato sauce. Then into the oven till the chicken's cooked through and the cheese has melted.
To do it properly the chicken should be crumbed first but I didn't bother.
Oven baked chips (ie, roast potatoes cut thin and long) and a bit of green salad. Voila.
One of these days I might even take a picture - it never occurs to me to photograph food.
Smoke free today and feeling quite okay about it. Yesterday was shitty but today's been alright. The shop's not doing well though. Barely making ends meet this month. It's a worry. *sigh*

Today's reject Phone shot - a reflection of the TV. Guess what DVD I was watching :)

Phone gets even more handsome., originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

Thursday Thirteen

Thirteen objects participating in the One Object/365 days Project.(in no particular order)

1. Willie
2. Skelly
3. Ele
4. Cheers
5. Sword
6. Pulpito
7. Sally Brown
8. Glass
9. Els Ports mountain
10. Mr Pretzel
11. BB
12. Rex
13. And, of course, Phone.

Thursday, March 06, 2008

About wagons and falling off...

Didn't just fall off, completely disgraced myself. Not just one or two but a whole fucking packet.
Almost a whole packet - what was left went in the bin this morning.
Ha, I nearly, nearly, nearly went and retrieved them when I found I had no internet today. Finally got email this afternoon and then the rest started working at about 2:30. No blog, no Flickr. Oh yeah, couldn't do any updates for work either.
Anyway, I've hauled myself back on to the wagon today. Feel like shit of course. My own fault.
I just can't be trusted out alone!

Here's a reject Phone shot just to change the subject. Mum's flowers of course.

Smelling the roses

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

Bad enough not smoking

But running out of coffee as well is just too much to cope with. And, of course, the express lane at the supermarket goes right past the cigarette display. It's a conspiracy. I just bought the coffee though.
This particular coffee is my current favourite. Organic and fair trade. Tastes mighty fine too. Can't go wrong.

Bad enough not smoking, originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

Unconscious Mutterings

  1. Chemical :: Romance, My

  2. Poker :: face

  3. Federal :: government

  4. Mattress :: bed

  5. Who am I? :: Where am I? How did I get here? Who are you?

  6. Investigation :: inquiry

  7. In good hands :: wish I was

  8. 8:30 :: time to go to work.

  9. Creditors :: Go Away!

  10. Resource :: ful

from here

Happy Birthday Clare

My baby sister turns something or other today.
Family dinner last night in honour (and for brother Pete's b'day last week). I'm happy to say I made it through the weekend smoke-free. Nephew James has given up too (again). It was the first smoke-free family gathering in forever.

Monday, March 03, 2008

Zucchini anyone?

Zucchini anyone?, originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

Bronnie just dropped this off for me. Homegrown from someone else. She's had enough.


Mrs Sparrow has found a new photography meme. Signs around town.
These aren't strictly from my bit of town. but what the hell.
The first one is the Seville butcher, near ma'n'pa's place. I think you've all seen this one before.

It's a team effort now.

This one is from Phillip Island. I like the little guy falling off the cliff.

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Sunday, March 02, 2008

Saturday Photo Hunt

This week's theme is "party"

Phone party

The black hole swallowed me

The black hole at the bottom of the red wine bottle that is. *groan*
It just shows what a morass of self-pity I was in yesterday, I completely forgot that the Saints were playing last night. And play they did. Beat the Bombers by 3 points. Woohoo, that puts them into the NAB Cup final. Yeah!
Laurie cooked last night so it was Burnt Offerings on the menu. Then he went off to the pub for "one with the boys". Kylie was home so we sat and watched the footy. I very nearly had one of her ciggies but she only had a few left so I didn't. She offered me one later on. No thank you. *pats self on back*
By half time in the game I was a bit less than sober so it's a wonder that I did say no. By then I'd run out of red so I watched the rest of the game from the safety of my bed.
I'm here to tell you that not smoking has absolutely no effect on the quality of hangovers. Ugh.
Anyway, I have to go see a phone about a photo.....

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Friday Fill-in

1. I'm looking forward to being in a better mood next week.
2. I don't handle not smoking or stupid people very well.
3. Bread is something I could eat every day.
4. Warmth and sunlight are on their way out.
5. Insanity here I come!
6. I do not like tattoo(s).
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a black hole swallowing me up, tomorrow my plans include eh? and Sunday, I want to go to Clare's b'day dinner and be cheerful!

Fill-ins here.

Another reason why I need a third arm and hand.

Reflections on a Phone, originally uploaded by jsarcadia.

One to hold the phone, one to hold the camera, one to adjust the focus.


Last night was bad. Boiled beef and cabbage. Gawd, save me from Irish cooks! My taste buds were screaming for something to do.
Laurie's cousin and her 5 y o brat were over for dinner. If either of them had a thought in their heads it'd be lonely.
You know what's coming, dontcha.
I only smoked half of it then threw it away. Locked myself in my room for the rest of the night. The upside of that was that episode 3 of series 2 of Life on Mars was on TV. I would've missed it if I'd stayed up and pretended to be sociable.
I really noticed last night that there are two voices in my head. One tells me "No, don't do it." The other tells me "Fuck 'em, it'll make you feel better."
I'm thinking I might get a lobotomy, (a) to get rid of that second voice and (b) to reduce me to the level where I can converse with these people comfortably.
Mood today is pissed off.